After surgery and what I learned about life.

So into surgery, I went after the Xrays revealed such extensive damage. I do not know how long I was in surgery for. I would like to find that out. But I woke up in a standard room and could not get back to sleep. I remember thinking I just wanted to get out of there and begin healing. I watched the clock tick by. I do not think I got back to sleep after waking from the surgery. But I just watched the time tick by unable to move as they had not given me crutches yet. The doctor told me later that he also had to repair the meniscus. All I knew was that the healing began already. I talked briefly to my sister on the phone and then made it home.

It was after the surgery and laying on the couch that I began a huge period of introspection and learning. I learnt how people want to help someone really really in need. And how important it is to let them. Friends would bring in my mail, take out the trash and bring me meals and so much more. I am not one to ask for help but I learnt to after the surgery. They say it takes a village and that is true for adults to. There is no way I could have survived without the help of friends and the willingness to take help.

I was asked in the hospital if I wanted a commode or bath seat or toilet riser but i refused them all because I wanted to work hard. If I had to crutch to the bathroom wearing a brace from hip to ankle I would get stronger with each step. So I am so glad I refused all.  But it was just the start of a long journey that without a doubt had its challenges but I also learnt a lot about myself. Like I can do hard things.